Too busy...

I have been so busy lately, my life is rather hectic which is strange for me. I got my AS (first year of A Level - UK) grades last week and I got 4 B's; it is amazing considering I was rather ill during the exam period. My long term boyfriend also got his grade but he is the year above me, he got ABB; meaning he got into his first choice university. Now, this is why life is hectic. He is moving away from our local village to a city located just over an hour from my home. I know it isn't a major distance but I am so used to him living about a 5 minute drive from me. The price of trains etc. means that I won't be able to see him as often as I would like but he will be making the journey home quite often so it should be okay, we also have Facetime and phones. I am so scared about the new girls he will meet, I fear he will find someone better but I trust him completely and we have almost been together 3 years now and he has never done anything to make me worry so I am feeling more confident.
Anyway, enough of this, I am happy with life lately and everything seems to be going great :D I have managed to get more of my 25 things I want to do in summer achieved!! Including camping, even though it was only in the garden... it was AMAZING! I have never been camping before, ever, so it was exciting for me. I think if I was going to go camping for real it might have to be 'glamping' because there are some things that I couldn't do without.
I have decided to join a gym with one of my best friends when the next school year starts and my boyfriend has gone off to university because it will help to keep me fit and also help keep me busy so my mind won't be on overdrive hahah. Myself and my best friend go on regular walks so it is just another mode of keeping fit that we shall start. I believe it is always better to go with someone as you stay motivated and also get distracted from the amount you are actually doing so in the end do more. If that makes any sense at all...
Motivation right now is a key part in my life. I am motivated to go back to school so I can complete my final year and leave to go off to university which I have been excited about for the past 4 years (me and my boyfriend should end up at the same university - I have known the one I want to go for 4 years and he also decided on the same one). I am motivated to make me and my boyfriend work whilst he is at university because this next year will be very difficult. Finally, I am motivated to achieve my dreams.
I want you to all be motivated to achieve your dreams. You can do it. Just try, even if you fall down just pick yourself up and carry on. You CAN do it.
Charli x

I'm back🌺

Hola, 

Haven't posted in a few weeks, oops! Just been so busy with life that I forgot and when I planned on writing something popped up. 

I have recently been staying at my boyfriends whilst his parents are on holiday which was fun but I had to become a house wife - cooking, cleaning ironing etc. Now if you know me you'll know that I am the last person to be cleaning but I suppose it is all preparation for university next year.

This week I have been getting uber excited about going in holiday and the workouts have had to be upped a gear due to all the sweet treats I find myself snacking on! Not good! 

I cannot wait to be back in Cornwall and get all tanned up, hopefully the weather will be nice but pray for me. When I say I love the 4hour+ journey down there people think I am strange but it's simply because I love the games I get to play in the car and the calmness of it all. However due to my dad hating traffic and being the worst for road rage we have to leave at 5am. I mean I can hardly wake at 9am let alone 5?! I might possibly die. Okay so that was an over exaggeration but still it will not be nice and I feel sorry for those who have to see the mess that I will look at that ungodly hour.

Anyway, haven't got much time so I shall write soon. I have a review I want to do on a book I have been reading for my English Literature A2 course and a blog about a sixth form walk I took part in. Talk soon, Charli x

P.s the photo above is of me getting some rays before Cornwall.

I'm home🌺

I'm Home!!!!

Just returned from the best holiday I have EVER been on. It was simply amazing! I only went down South (England) for a week but the weather was just perfection with the sun, sea but no sex. My tan is perfection, no pictures but just take my word for it. 

I did a handful of my 25 things I wanted to do in summer and the rest I shall achieve soon, my favourite thing has got to be the body boarding. I have friction burns on my elbows and thighs but it really was worth it.

Bodyboarding is one of my favourite things this month.

Along with The Color Purple a book I chose to read for my English Literature A2 level. The topic and themes are highly controversial with beautifully created characters who are a inspiration to the readers. 

Superdry is another of this month's favourites (it's a clothing brand if you don't know) I have been wearing it for a couple of years now but recently I have fallen in love with it all over again. It is a designer brand which means that it is slightly more expensive however the quality of the products means that it lasts for years... Providing that you stay the same clothing size. 

Finally, I am also super excited to try and get motivated to become fit and healthy again. I want to join a gym to start to work out better. My boyfriend has recently joined a local gym and has started to motivate me to join him. I may try and ask one of my friends to join me but if you guys have any motivational songs to listen to at the gym then please let me know! 

I shall leave it there and let you go, talk soon, Charli x

The photo above was taken from the balcony in Cornwall.

Summer

So after the serious post earlier I have decided to do a more informal post. I am so excited about SUMMER this year. I have a family holiday arranged and even though it is only to Cornwall I am really excited. I love spending time in Cornwall because it a so calm and peaceful, it really feels like a place I could call home.

This will be my last family holiday as next summer I am planning on going to a Greek island with my girls as it it my last summer before university.

This summer will also be very special to me as my boyfriend of just of two and a half years is going off to university in September which will be very hard for me but I really believe that we can stay together.
This summer I have compiled a list of 25 things I want to do over the summer. I've never done anything like this before but as this summer will be quite poignant in my life I decided to choose 25 things I want to do and I will take a picture every time I do that thing so it remains with me always. So, here is the list of 25 things I want to do during my summer:

1. I want to go camping
2. I want to go to a zoo
3. I want to go for a picnic
4. I want to stargaze 
5. I want to go to the beach
6. I want to go on a bike ride
7. I want to bake a cake
8. I want to build a sandcastle
9. I want to go in the sea (body-boarding)
10. I want to play crazy golf or mini golf
11. I want to sunbathe
12. I want to make smoothies
13. I want to drink iced tea
14. I want to watch the sunrise/sunset
15. I want to have a BBQ
16. I want to 'cloud watch'
17. I want to go out for a posh meal
18. I want to go bowling
19. I want to go to Blackpool
20. I want to have a movie night
21. I want to go for a hike
22. I want to build a pillow fort
23. I want to go swimming
24. I want to toast marshmallows
25. I want to PARTY

I will take a photo and post a blog every time I do one of the 25 things from my list. Why don't you try and do the same, it doesn't have to be 25 things. I could be more or it could be less. Just enjoy yourself and try not to take things for granted, even if you're not going away you can still have fun and enjoy yourself. Whether you're going to spend this summer with your family, your friends, your boyfriend or even if you are on your own just go out and do something different. Yet most of all have fun.

Charli x

Insecurity is a killer.

Insecurity is a killer. You hear in the news all the time about young girls and boys deciding that it would be easier to take their own life than face their own insecurities. 

Throughout your life people will cause you to have insecurities. They'll tell you that you're ugly, fat, spotty, bad hair, disgusting clothing etc... I'm going to tell you something now. You may not believe me but honestly don't listen to them. They aren't worth your time. One thing I can promise you is that they are jealous of you! They want to be more like you so they make themselves feel better by making you feel like s***. They know what they're doing so don't kid yourself they're not your 'friends'. 

Those who are your friends will pick you up. They WILL tell you when something is wrong or you've said something you shouldn't. On the other hand they will try and make you feel better about yourself when you are down and you can find them telling you that you look really nice or that they like your outfit. They are the ones to keep close. 

I know that it hurts to be told little things about you that others don't like but don't take any notice! You are who you are, those who try and put you down aren't worth a single sad second so keep that head high and stay strong. 

Charli x

Intro x

I've decided to start a blog. A place for myself, as a place to comprehend my thoughts. A place I want to write down whatever little thing I want to talk about.

I'm Charli, I'm 17 and from England. This blog is going to have both ups and downs but I suppose that sums up my life. I'm going to put it out there from the start of this, my life hasn't been the best. Things have happened that shouldn't have ever happened to someone, especially at the age of 17. I don't want sympathy, I just want people to know that I can get very down at times and things that have happened in the past explain these 'down' periods. On the other hand I have the most amazing friends, family and boyfriend surrounding me, they help to keep me 'sane'.

I am currently studying for my A-Levels so I can go off to university and achieve my dream of being a teacher. I'll try and keep up this blog long enough to show you my life and where I end up but I know what I'm like. There shall be no set dates that I will blog, I'll do it when I feel I should and want to. 

If anyone ever reads this I want you to stay strong and never forget to smile x